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<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">I want to be an honest man and a good writer, as James Baldwin was. I greatly
admired him. He once told a story that I used in the third volume of </span></font><I><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">Memory
of Fire</span></font></I><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">. He was very young, and he was walking down the street with a
friend, a painter. They stop at a red light. "Look," says the friend. Baldwin
sees nothing, except a dirty pool of water. The friend insisted: "Look at it,
really." So Baldwin takes a good look and sees a spot of oil spreading in the
puddle. In the spot of oil, he sees a rainbow, and the street moving, and people
moving in the street; and he sees madmen and magicians and the whole world
moving. The universe was there in that little pool. On that day, Baldwin said,
he learned to see. For me, that's an important lesson. I am always trying to
look at the universe through the little puddles in the streets.</span></font>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> -
<a href="http://www.theatlantic.com/unbound/interviews/ba2000-11-30.htm">Eduardo Galeano
</a>via <a href="http://www.ncf.carleton.ca/~ek867/wood_s_lot.html">Wood
s Lot</a></span></font></p>
<P align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></font> </P>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial" size="1"><a href="http://www.fatshadow.com/thestory.html">Before</a>
</font><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:11pt;"> </span></font><font face="Arial" size="1">August
2 2002</font><font face="Arial"><font face="Arial" size="1"><font face="Arial"> 9 :42
</font><font face="Arial" size="1"><font face="Arial">AM</font></font></font></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"> </p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:12pt;">
...and then I had a cherry scone, a handful
of walnuts, a handful of <a href="http://www.villageorganics.com/vegbootwholf.html">veggie
booty</a>, couple of fork fulls of tuna
salad, a carrot, and dinner with Renee at
<a href="http://www.bayinsider.com/auto_docs/dining/31768.html">Da
Flora</a>. Featuring, the gnocchi, (of course),
<a href="http://www.milioni.com/salumi/inglese/dati/25.htm">speck,</a>
olives, arugala and figs, roasted pork with
barley and fennel, pappardelle with oyster
mushrooms and warm chocolate cake. We
shared all that. I drank wine.</span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"> </p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:12pt;">The
food chronicling won't last long. It's entertaining
for a while but I can't spend that much
time thinking about it. I mostly eat in
hand fulls though out the day. Or standing
in front of the refrigerator with a fork
or a spoon. I push myself to fix dinner
... on a plate ... as much as I can.
I always eat breakfast. Right now I'm eating
Multi Grain Cheerios with <a href="http://www.strausmilk.com/">milk</a>
and cantaloupe. And <a href="http://www.sfnorthbeach.com/graffeo.html">Graffeo</a>.
I do think it's good to be mindful about
food. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"> </p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:12pt;">Pattie
left a comment yesterday that I don't want
any one to miss.</span><span style="font-size:10pt;">
</span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"> </p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">I personally have a love/hate relationship with so-called "fast foods." I hate
cooking. When I eat at home, I eat raw foods and cheeses and yogurt. I could
probably survive on nuts and berries and not skip a beat. But I also eat at
those "aweful places" two or three meals a week, usually on an extremely busy
day when I have no time or money and I need some quick protein. But I note that
usually I don't feel good afterward, I usually pay a price for the indulgence.
However, sometimes, I feel okay, happy to have the salt and nutrients (yes,
hamburgers have nutrients.) <BR><BR>I have what turns out to be, I guess, a
radical theory that different people at different times need different kinds of
food and that no one food is good for everyone or bad for everyone and that what
is good or bad changes with circumstance. <BR><BR>I also think it is important
to listen to how one's body feels before and after a meal. But this mindfulness
is difficult to do, so I remain gentle with myself. After all, food obeys the
spiritual principal that most things in life do, "this too shall pass." :)</span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"> </p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:12pt;">Heh.</span></font> </p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"> </p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:12pt;">The
field trip to <a href="http://www.berkeleybowl.com/">The
Bowl</a> has me thinking like a cook again.
And I am a food snob. When I eat a hamburger
and french fries I (generally) eat them
at <a href="http://www.sfnorthbeach.com/mos.html">Mo's</a>,
where they grind the meat fresh daily and
use real fresh cut potatoes. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"> </p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:12pt;">The
dinner with Renee was about her birthday
and the fact that she's leaving for college.
In Ohio. <a href="http://www.oberlin.edu/">Oberlin</a>.
Gasp. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"> </p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:12pt;">My
apartment building is usually pretty quiet.
But last night, at one o'clock in the morning,
someone was sitting in the parking lot listening
to Marvin Gaye, REALLY LOUD. I love Marvin
Gaye. But...there was no way to sleep, so
I read. I'm sleep deprived and woozy. I
was just thinking that I might have to go
back to bed. Then I realized that I made
some coffee but I never drank it. </span></font></p>
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<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><a href="http://www.bigfatblog.com/">Paul</a>
blogs that <a href="http://adbusters.org/home/">Adbusters
is asking for feedback from fat culture</a>.
I'm writing my ... feedback ... now. Beginning
with reminding them that fat and obese are
different words, with different implications.
</span></font></p>
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