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<td width="907"><p><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:18pt;"><b>May
2006 <a href="http://www.fatshadow.com">Home</a></b></span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span class="rss:item"><a id="e1247"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1">May
2 </font></a><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1">2006
12:54 P<font size="1">M</font></font></span><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;"> </span></font><span class="rss:item"><a id="e1247"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1"> </font></a></span></p>
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">When
I was managing the kitchen of the big tourist
restaurant the handy man was from Nicaragua.
The kitchen was remodeled a few times during
the time I was there. We always worked with
a guy who owned his own sheet metal business.
Gruff. Hard working. He built and installed
shelves and covered the wall with stainless.
One
morning the handyman, the metal guy and
I were talking and he began a diatribe about
how "these foreigners that were taking
away our jobs..." </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">There was a moment
when he looked at my face and didn't see
the agreement he was looking for and then
looked at the handyman's face and he must
have realized he was standing in a room
full of people from Mexico, Central and
South America and he just stopped. The reason
he felt so comfortable talking to us was
that we were all friends. Not great friends.
The kind of friend you are when you work
together day after day. I think he temporarily
forgot where he was and who he was talking
to. At the risk of making my own generalization,
he was one of those guys who listened to
AM talk radio.</span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Yesterday
was <a href="http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/object/article?o=2&f=/c/a/2006/05/02/MNG4IIJ1BL1.DTL">pretty
amazing.</a> In the morning Democracy Now
did a thing about <a href="http://www.democracynow.org/article.pl?sid=06/05/01/1337209">the
history of May Day</a> beginning in 1865.</span></font></p>
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<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:9pt;">There was really no labor movement in 1865 to speak of. But what
happened was, workers -- many of them immigrants -- felt the need to
create one, partly because employers felt that there was a -- they were
going to freeze wages, keep wages the way they were, that any increase
in wages would be a loss in profits, and they were not going to allow
the workday to decrease. So people organized the labor movement, and
when they did that in 1877, they faced terrible, terrible violence.
About 30 people were killed in Chicago by the Chicago police. And that
sets the city down a road of tension, of struggle, that leads directly
to Haymarket.</span></font></td>
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
think about how much blood was shed so that
people could have an eight hour work day.
And now, in white collar professions, people
often work more than that because they know
they won't be promoted if they don't. And
immigrant labour too often operates outside
the rules all together. The bosses still
want the profits at any cost to the well
being of the worker. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
think Bill Maher said something about it
not being true that Americans won't do certain
jobs but it is true that they won't work
for two dollars an hour. The issues are
so convoluted. The guys who owned the big
tourist restaurant wanted to train people
to move through the ranks rather than hire
line cooks. Why? It was cheaper. In some
ways it was good because the guys learned
and got kitchen creds. I've seen many of
them in kitchens all over the city. But
it was exploitation. </span></font></p>
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<td width="301"><p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:9pt;">"You can't talk about globalized capital and exporting jobs and not
talk about global human and labor rights for immigrant workers,"(Jesse)
Jackson said. "Immigrants aren't sending good jobs overseas,
corporations are." </span></font></p><p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;">
<font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:9pt;">Time and again this new immigrant movement has taken the politicians,
the church and labor leaders by surprise with its discipline and its
fury. </span></font></p><p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;">
<font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:9pt;">The experts, you see, are missing the point. </span></font></p><p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;">
<font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:9pt;">This movement is already a backlash - against decades of anti-immigrant
scapegoating and hysteria in Washington. Congress ignores this cry for
recognition at our country's peril.
(<a href="http://www.democracynow.org/article.pl?sid=06/05/02/1352223">more</a>)</span></font></p></td>
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<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span class="rss:item"><a id="e1248"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1">May
4 </font></a><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1">2006
3:34 P<font size="1">M</font></font></span><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;"> </span></font><span class="rss:item"><a id="e1248"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1"> </font></a></span></p>
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
saw Billie Jean King <a href="http://www.pbs.org/kcet/tavissmiley/archive/200604/20060425_transcript.html#2">on
Tavis</a> the other day.
I remember her from <a href="http://www.hbo.com/events/billiejeanking/index.html">back
in the day</a> and she is very cool but my awareness
of her is dim. I'm not and never have been a sports
person. I'm glad she does <a href="http://www.billiejeanking.org/charities/default.asp">the
work she does</a> for women who are interested in sports.
She says that women's organizations only get 7% of charitable
dollars. </span></font></p>
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<td width="397"><p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:9pt;">When I say sports, we have a Go Go Girl program, for instance, that
we started in Atlanta and Chicago, and we're gonna be expanding to San
Antonio and other cities.</span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:9pt;">We're really fighting obesity, self esteem, leadership for girls,
all these things for them. But it's amazing how underserved we are. And
the Go Go Girl program serves, 80 percent are girls of color, because
we know we're underserved. </span></font></p></td>
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Fighting
obesity. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">When
I was a ... girl ... gym class was the worst. My uniform
never fit. I was always being asked to do things I had
no interest or ability in and no one wanted me on a
team since ... I had no interest or ability. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">There
were things I did want to do. I was always willing to
swim. From the minute the pool opened in the summer
I was in it. I was always willing to walk. We had no
car and lived in a very <a href="http://www.boro.dormont.pa.us/vertical/Sites/%7B14ACE961-E8A0-477D-9CC5-33FADC320FCE%7D/uploads/%7B46C2C29E-564E-4F09-AF3C-EA59BF28C955%7D.JPG">hilly area</a>.
I was always willing to dance. Hours in my room with
stacks of Motown forty-fives. I know there were/are
fat kids who were afraid to dance in public or be seen
in a bathing suit but I wasn't one of them. I had some
of those issues when I was in my teens and even as an
adult. A gym suit with buttons that popped every
time I moved was much worse than a bathing suit. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">And
there was this weird faulty reasoning about me being
fat because I wasn't interested in sports. If I had
been thin, or average sized I might have just been a
kid who didn't like sports. When you attach "obesity"
to every cause you end up teaching self hate. I often
think about how much self doubt I have hard wired because
I was being told something that wasn't exactly true.
Something in me knew it wasn't true. Thankfully. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
read an article by <a href="http://www.edibleschoolyard.org/ppl_aw.html">Alice
Waters</a>, one of my favorite people. It was long
enough ago that I don't have a link but she also used
the fighting obesity thing. I never have any trouble
with anyone wanting to help kids learn about food but
why, oh why, must the obesity thing always be in the
mix? Kids who will never be fat benefit from movement
and good food. So why not talk about food and exercise
and celebrate diversity in body size? </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">It's
so hard when the people who are doing the good work
use the size of my ass to make their point. </span></font></p>
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<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span class="rss:item"><a id="e1249"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1">May
8 </font></a><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1">2006
12:20 P<font size="1">M</font></font></span><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;"> </span></font><span class="rss:item"><a id="e1249"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1"> </font></a></span></p>
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;"><a href="http://redzenradish.livejournal.com/">Kristina</a>
came up for the weekend. We <a href="http://www.ferrybuildingmarketplace.com/hog_island_oyster_company.php">ate</a>
and <a href="http://sf.ruggedelegance.com/places/182.html">ate</a>
and <a href="http://sanfrancisco.citysearch.com/profile/907647/san_francisco_ca/ton_kiang.html?cslink=search_name_cust&ulink=search__searchslot1_520__1_profile_2_1">ate</a>
and talked and talked and talked and went to <a href="http://www.citylights.com/">book
stores</a> and <a href="http://www.blackoakbooks.com/">book
stores</a> and <a href="http://www.greenapplebooks.com/cgi-bin/mergatroid/index.html">book
stores</a>. It was just the best. Her generosity is
overwhelming. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
am usually suspicious of the term over-eating. But we
felt like we were over eating. When I thought of what
we actually ate it didn't seem like much. We split everything
and we ate small plates. But lordy! I am feeling like
I might be digesting for the rest of my life. Not that
I'm complaining. I would happily do it again. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">When
I was cooking for M & K portion size was never right.
One night everything was too big and the next not enough.
It was exasperating mostly because the conversation
happened before anyone ate anything. It was always based
on the first look at the plate. After a lifetime of
dieting I think Mom's measuring ability is permanently
skewed. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">We
went on a road trip together when I was in my early
twenties. We were sitting in the car all day and they
stopped for three meals. That was the first time I realized
I needed to have a time every day when I felt like my
stomach was empty. Too much food felt bad. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">When
you're fat the assumption is that you eat a lot all
the time. "A lot" is a subjective thing. I've
watched people eat plates full of food that seems heaping
to me and, concentrically, people say they were full
after a few bites. Their physical size had little to
do with it. There is a part of me that always believes
I am eating too much. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">This
weekend I ate a lot. I loved every bite. It felt restorative.
Being with such a good friend felt restorative. I can't
imagine that there was anything unhealthy about that.
</span></font></p>
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<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span class="rss:item"><a id="e1250"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1">May
15 </font></a><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1">2006
10:30 A<font size="1">M</font></font></span><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;"> </span></font><span class="rss:item"><a id="e1250"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1"> </font></a></span></p>
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Yesterday
I clicked between the two CSPANs. On one there was a guy
with what might be characterized as a perspective of
the right and on the other a guy from the left. What
defines right and left can be argued. The guy from the
left was not that radical by my definition. Listening
to the guy from the right made me tense and angry but
the other guy was boring. Tense and angry almost felt
better but I decided to turn them both off. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
make myself listen to people with whom I do not agree
in hopes of learning. Both of these guys were in heavy
ideology speak. Low on information. High on rhetoric.
I can and will listen to the rhetoric of the left with
less tension. Most of the time I want information. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Usually
the weekends on CSPAN is BookTV. And often I am listening
while I play with my <a href="http://www.fatshadow.com/SIMS.htm">dolls.</a>
</span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I'm
really a boring player. My goal is keep everybody happy
all of the time. So, for example, I keep all the family
aspiration Sims in one area of the town and all the
romance aspiration Sims in another. Quite provincial
of me, I know. There are exceptions. Popularity Sims,
learning Sims and money Sims aren't negatively effected
by an affair. I have a learning Sim who had a child
with a romance Sim. His wife never knew and probably
wouldn't have cared as long as she didn't catch them
in the act. The wife is also a learning Sim. Their
oldest son married the oldest daughter of the romance
Sim and moved in with them after college. I didn't even
think about the connection until after they had moved
in. Quite the soap. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">There
was one family Sim who had an affair with a romance
Sim in college before he met his wife. Once he met his
wife he stopped seeing the hoochy. I call my romance
Sims hoochies. It's a long boring story to explain
why I let this happen. I am the one doing the clicking.
They both went on in their adult lives to have children.</span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Sometimes
a Sim will just stop by to visit. One night the hoochy,
who was very pregnant at the time, stopped by to visit
the family man. His wife was at work. His baby was about
to wake up from a nap and need attention. Here was a
moment rife with complex story telling possibilities.
I didn't have anything to do with the hoochy coming
over but I could have used it. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">But
no. He took care of his kid. She went home. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Later
in life his youngest son became a teen and I made him
a family Sim. But after I did I thought I missed a drama
opportunity. I could have made him a romance Sim, had
dad introduce him to the hoochy mama and ... wouldn't
hat have been a family legacy? </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">It's
kooky. I know. I get my complexity from CSPAN and act
out my fifties moralism in a computer game. My reaction
to the game always surprises me. I'm so square. Sometimes
I just need a simple world in which everyone can be
happy. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
haven't done much documenting of my new Sims but I did
take a picture of a family barbecue. Eldest daughter
returned to the home of her ageing parents to meet her
youngest brother. Sweet, huh? </span></font></p>
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Yesterday
I turned it all off and read more about Gertrude and
her brother. <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Leo_Stein">Leo</a>
spent time in Paris learning to paint. I would like
to that. </span></font></p>
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
want to apologize to everyone on my blog
roll. I'm pretty sure not everyone on my
blog roll stops by to read me but for those
of you who do ... I am sorry. I have not
been reading. And, clearly, I have not been
writing. Blogging is such an act of
faith. I'm not saying I feel obligated to
read but do feel like I'm neglecting my
relationships when I don't. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
had a bad reaction to some medication, which
wiped me out for awhile. The pool finally
reopened and I've been in the water ever
since. I'm feeling much better.</span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">And.
Now. For some news. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
have a job. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Oh,
but it is just so kooky! I will be doing
software testing for the Sims! Isn't
that wild!?! The job will only last for
six months but I'm kinda psyched. I certainly
have spent
enough time playing the game. I think it's
cool that I will make some money as a result.
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I'm
not sure how this will impact my blogging.
I don't know how much I can, or would want
to, blog about the job. I will be spending four
hours a day on public transportation and that
often gives me fodder for writing. And
I'm still a fat woman in a fat hating world.
I'm sure I'll have a thing or two to say
about that. Things will either get
much better here or much worse. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
really don't want to stop writing, or reading.
I love my on line community and I think
of people, even when I'm not reading.
If I have Internet time at work
I can imagine reading my blogroll on a break.
I really have no idea what it will be like.
I just know I've been down for a long time
and right now I feel better. There's something
about getting this job that just makes me
laugh. Even if it's a terrible job I can
do anything for six months. And maybe, just
maybe, it will be fun.</span></font></p>
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