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<td width="916"><p><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:18pt;"><b>June
2007 <a href="http://www.fatshadow.com">Home</a></b></span></font></p>
<p><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:9pt;">I am experiencing
the learning curve of gratitude. - <a href="http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=11182405&ps=bb2">Mary
Chapin Carpenter</a></span></font>
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<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span class="rss:item"><a id="e1278"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1">June
24 </font></a><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1">2007
8:07 P<font size="1">M</font></font></span><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;"> </span></font><span class="rss:item"><a id="e1278"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1"> </font></a></span></p>
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">
Two friends sent me the same card. </span></font></p>
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Cool.
That's how I want my living room to look. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
often think in terms of whether or not I feel like someone
knows me. Sometimes I use it as a distancing mechanism.
I don't think I know anyone who I haven't had that thought
about, even my closest friends. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
can defend it. I know how it became a default response.
I also see it as petulance. But, ya know how it is with
default things. It happens. I try to stay calm and wait
it out. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">But
when I got the same card twice I knew that my friends
know me. I also got a card with a picture of a martini
and a cig in an ashtray. That's me too. Not that I smoke
anymore. And martinis are few and far between. But still.
</span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Funny.
</span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;"><a href="http://www.allaboutgeorge.com/">George</a>
asked me what I've been listening to and I realize that
I haven't been listening to anything. I'm a singer who
never sings any more. A cook who never cooks. A writer
who never writes. I ripped a bunch of discs into
my computer at work and I've been trying to listen to
music every day.</span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Small
steps. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><SCRIPT type="text/javascript">get_comment_link(1580)</script> <noscript></span><a href="http://rateyourmusic.com/yaccs/commentsn/b=90000008560_and_e_is_1580"><span style="font-size:10pt;">comment</span></a><span style="font-size:10pt;"></noscript></span></font></p>
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<p><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:9pt;">No turning from the threat of love,<br>
No transcendental leap - - Leonard
Cohen</span></font></p>
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<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span class="rss:item"><a id="e1275"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1">June
3 </font></a><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1">2007
9:42 P<font size="1">M</font></font></span><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;"> </span></font><span class="rss:item"><a id="e1277"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode" size="1"> </font></a></span></p>
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">
I'm having trouble writing for all the same
reasons. I worked some overtime and I had a coughing
sneezing thing that lasted for weeks. I still have a
bit of it. I'm tired all of the time. It may sound grim
and sometimes it is. Mostly it's just time on a train
and time doing my funny job and time in the pool and
time recovering. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
watched <a href="http://www.leonardcohenimyourman.com/">this</a>
three times. A bit from which you can see <a href="http://www.youtube.com/p.swf?video_id=1MDlMdu2gjw&eurl=http%3A//www.google.com/search%3Fhl%3Den%26client%3Dfirefox-a%26rls%3Dorg.mozilla%253Aen-US%253Aofficial%26hs%3DKqM%26q%3Dif%2Bi&iurl=http%3A//img.youtube.com/vi/1MDlMdu2gjw/2.jpg&t=OEgsToPDskLHcA7vmggQiEWsVkhIF6I4">here.</a>
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<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Under
the heading: not sure if this good news, EA hired me.
After a year I have finally left Geppetto's work shop
and now I am a real child. Which means better money
and benefits and a plaque with my name on it. It's not
a bad job. It is a corporation. It is corporate culture.
It is a corporation that makes games and it is in California
so things are mellow. In some ways. But there's no question that
we are in a corporation. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">There's
a kind of silencing. I can't talk about it. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Heh.
</span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">There's
no part of me that wants to write about game secrets
on my blog. And I don't want to bite the hand that feeds
me. And things aren't bad. The company has been through
some changes since the days of <a href="http://ea-spouse.livejournal.com/274.html">EA
spouse.</a> So. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
dunno.</span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
had a really, really great dinner with <a href="http://www.allaboutgeorge.com/">George.</a>
Seems like it was a long time ago but it was only a
few weeks. There are pictures of my <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/allaboutgeorge/517338928/">pasta
and asparagus</a> and his <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/allaboutgeorge/517364899/">burger</a>.
We had great conversation. It was good. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Renee
is in town for a few weeks. We had <a href="http://themenupage.com/mos.html">burgers</a>
with Kathleen. I think I'll get to hang with her some
this week. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">Ya
know. Life is OK. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify"><font face="Lucida Sans Unicode"><span style="font-size:11pt;">I
just wish I could write. </span></font></p>
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