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<p><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b>July
2002 Part
2</b></span></font></p>
<p><SPAN style="font-size:9pt;"><font face="Arial">A
mutual plum is not a plum. I was too respectful
to take the pulp and do not like a stone.
Send
no union letters. The soul must go by Death
alone, so, it must by life, if it is a soul.
If
a committee - no matter... <a href="http://www.booksite.com/texis/scripts/oop/click_ord/showdetail.html?sid=3471&isbn=0679449868&music=&buyable=0">Emily
Dickenson </a> </font></SPAN></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial" size="1">July
18 2002</font><font face="Arial"><font face="Arial" size="1"><font face="Arial"> 9:14</font><font face="Arial" size="1"><font face="Arial">
AM</font></font></font></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"> </p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> I
was supposed to meet with my advisor for
the BSWP and so I printed it out. It's 118
pages so it has some bulk. When you look
at a thing like that on the screen, scrolling
back and forth, it doesn't seem like that
much. But then you click on print. There
is something very satisfying about the weight
of 118 pages. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">Sadly,
my advisor is unwell and she forgot our
appointment. So I was sitting there, drinking
coffee and eating a bagel with cream cheese
for an hour. Kinda sad huh? She was very
apologetic. It didn't seem like it should
be a big deal, but I got a little manic.
Might a been coz I was hopped
up on caffeine and carbs. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">I
was reading <a href="http://www.smallpieces.com/">Small
Pieces Loosely Joined</a>, the whole time,
which is a nice enough book. I think one
of the bloggers referred to reading it as
drinking the purple Koolade. But ... ya
know ... I'm already on the bus. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">The
key word in the title, for me, is loosely.
About a month ago I realized that my experience
of the blog cluster was the same experience
I had of the school yard. I'm kind of hanging
around in the corner hoping for attention.
Some <a href="http://www.kalilily.net/">very</a> <a href="http://justlikethat.blogspot.com/">nice</a> <a href="http://allied.blogspot.com/">girls</a> visit my corner once
in a while and I feel like maybe ... someday
... the others will like me too. Sigh.</span></font></p>
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<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">But
my friends read me. Many of whom don't
even blog or have a site. And I realized I was
wringing my hands and flipping my skirts
trying to get the attention of ... some
other kids. Meanwhile I know some of the
<a href="http://kbrigan.blogspot.com/">coolest</a>, <a href="http://members.shaw.ca/cshock/">smartest</a> <a href="http://www.deardiary.net./cgi-bin/viewer.cgi?diary=26140">kids</a> in the yard. (As
evidenced in my comments.) </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">Yesterday,
<a href="http://wickedpersephone.org/about/news/00000146.html">Kerykes</a> commented,
mentioned me on
her blog (we fat kids do gotta stick together)
and we exchanged a couple of e-mails. This
morning I got e-mail from Leigh, who read
Kerykes and then <a href="http://nodltd.com/home.shtml">linked
to me</a> on her site. <a href="http://olliezero.phpwebhosting.com/">Ollie</a>,
who hosts the <a href="http://olliezero.phpwebhosting.com/fat/">Fight
Fat Phobia</a> list added me. There are
many yards converging. Which is part of
what Mr. Weinberger is saying. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">And
yet. I wonder. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">I still thrill when I see
my name on a blog roll!! Once <a href="http://pagecount.blogspot.com/">Mike</a> mentioned
me in his blog and I was high for ... well
I still get high thinking about it. Why?
Because Mike is cool!! AND ... he read me.
He got me. He talked back to me. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">118
pages. A mention by a blogger who I read
and admire. My name on a list at the side
of someone's page. Loosely bound. But it
means so much. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">There
is <a href="http://www.aaronclinger.com/">a guy</a>
who did this amazing graphic thing.
It was a 3D man who moved when you
moved your mouse. Everyone was blogging
it. It was on <a href="http://www.daypop.com/top/">Day Pop</a>. I blogged it and
sent e-mails to people about it. Then one
day he took it down and left a note saying
that he was starting to care too much about
what other people were thinking.</span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">Uh.
Yeah. </span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">Me.
I was freaking coz <a href="http://rateyourmusic.com/yaccs/">YACCS</a> was on and
off all day yesterday and my comments
weren't there and there's been so much fun
stuff in my comments lately. And I check
for comments twenty times a day! Little
girl. Spinning. See me. See me. See me.
Sigh.</span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;">Maybe
it's me who's loosely bound. Maybe I need
to be more like <a href="http://www.booksite.com/texis/scripts/oop/click_ord/showdetail.html?sid=3471&isbn=0679449868&music=&buyable=0">Emily</a>.</span></font></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"> </span></p>
<p align="justify" style="line-height:100%; margin-top:0; margin-bottom:0;"><font face="Arial"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><a href="http://www.members.shaw.ca/cshock/firstpersonplural.htm">Pattie
and Carl show today.</a> <a href="http://cfuv.uvic.ca/">Tune
in.</a> </span></font></p>
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